"While ago I was very respectful to the traditions and didn't even realize what I was being part of.
Now I look back and think there was no "I used to think", there was just no thinking at all.
To look back and realize how sleep I was, and to see now the real picture of everything. It's something I'm beyond grateful, even with all the downsides. Such as feeling alone.
I was probably one of the luckiest men on earth, or in history. Information always came, everytime I needed and everytime I looked for it. Still how do you know this is a dream, if you were never got awaken?
This is the part of the river that you know only when you cross it. In my case, I didn't go on my own will. I was dragged to it. I was dragged in the most beautiful way there is.
A woman came, and she came as the perfect sun, at the perfect time, for the right plant to grow. This lady came as the gift, as a blessing, the truest form of proof. Everything I needed, and everything I asked came right there, through the door with her.
She was cool and wild. The kind of girl you never catch, but the one that saves your life.
We did Ayahuasca together without the conventional rules. I was already open minded and losing my fears about the medicine and all the concepts already known, so there was not much stopping me. And she was confident, vivid and untameable.
She liberated me. She pushed me into the abyss of the source. And all there is, and all there has to be was being shown to me, and she was there, holding me, keeping me in the stream of sanity.
She touched me as the wife to his husband after coming back from war. All my wounds and holes in my soul were being filled by love. Her magical presense sheltered my whole being, and I was feeling safe, protected and comprehended.
And then I saw her. I saw the face of one more woman, and she was just popping around everywhere. I saw her in her neck, in her lips, in her breasts.
I felt she wanted to take all of me, all my soul with her but everytime there was a soft hand bringing me back. I was shown the universe in her body, and every kiss and every stroke turned into new explosions, new planets and new stars appearing.
I was melting. My senses were all in their truest form. My vision, my ears, my skin. No longer I felt trapped. I was one, with everything, therefore no limits, no more cages of existing.
No longer I was afraid, no longer I was attached to the lies of ignorance.
When I asked her name, she said <
>. And this is how I got free."
